On October 15th, 2010
I was baptized
But little did I know what I was being baptized into
A baptism is suppose to mean the beginning of a holy life
A Godly Life
I was only 14 years old
I didnt know what that meant
I guess that was the perfect time to take advantage
Dipped in a pool of water
Declarations made over my life
Feeling as though I washed all my sins away
Oh how that felt so good!
I realized that nothing really was different
Its not that I didnt try my hardest
I was misguided
Full of so much hurt that was masked by this baptism
I couldnt believe that I was free
How could I if the one who made these declarations over my life was a false prophet?
Did I take that too far?
Did I say out loud what everyone else was thinking?
In the moment I thought I was being baptized into a spiritual family
In peaceful waters
In forgiving waters
In waters of grace
I was instead baptized into religion
No, Im not saying that that’s what God represents
That was the one who baptized me represented
in my life…
I dont accept this baptism anymore
I dont accept what this baptism meant for my spiritual life
I dont accept the hypocrisy
But I still accept Jesus!
Except without all the religion
That’s all that matters to me
One day, I hope to be baptized again
In waters of true peace
My day will come !